i painted that not too long ago and its been sitting in my deviant art and nobody really posted any comments, maybe this will change it up a bit. i used reference, but crap, it feels good painting again, even if its digitally.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
The Man who loves God with all His heart, body, mind and spirit and gives glory and honor to Him, daily. The Man who loves and cherishes his Wife to no end. The Man who loves his children and won't ever bail on them but will guide them in their growth into young adulthood, pooring out confidence and encouagement for whatever they wanna do in with their lives. The Man who has a career and pays the bills and not only takes care of his family, but uses his salary to help those in need...
So if i mess up today... My fault... I'll try my best to do better tomorrow... Don't consider me right now. Its not who i am.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
I was inspired by this photo of a back alley of a gritty chinatown. Oil, slime and cluttered with pipes and trash cans, junk. It was great. Thats just how we chinese do. You know? I went to chinatown and low adn behold, all over the place, i found this dream of grittiness. Is that a metaphore for how asians live? Is that a metaphore for how things really are...
We all see the Chinatown entrance, big and grand. Lovely to behold, but the streets are greesy with the oils that spill from the restuarants and the dishes that they serve. Tourist snapping photos while illegals cary cargo in and out of stores. Air vents, pipes, more air vents and pipes, chipping paint with rotting trash cover the back alleys of the most prestige restuarants. trust me, none of them are 5 stars. You may think that the tables, dishs look nice and the food is set up in a way where even the most divine of emporers will smile if they saw the food. But you've never seen the kitchens in which that wonderful food is made. haha. You wouldn't want to. Trust me.
People look lavish on the outside to cover the grime on the inside.
I don't know what the second scene is going to be.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
i kinda think you can love something so much until you see the wear and tear on the side, until you see that something that wasn't suppose to be seen. Until all that has already been portrayed to you has been whiped clean and this thing or multiple things have a presidance to change the way you percieve that person... BUT... it doesn't. I find beauty in her imperfections. I love them. I love her... She's constantly on my mind and im just a phone call away... but... the problem is... she doesn't know...
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
I knew this was gonna be a feet in itself... So i just got out of the conversation with him and things are pretty bad... Dad always seems like he's yellin hen he talks, so its not hard to believe that i was intimidated the entire conversation. I think the biggest point that he made was that mom is like a tall tree thats goes straight up into the air, you can't bend her at all, or she'll snap. But if she was a young true and you bent her then, she would have grown differently... Point being, dad said if i go through with this she'll snap and go crazy becuas thats the type of person she is... Which she is... there is too much to say about mom, none of which ill get into right now...Dad said it doesn't matter if you goto church, i know you goto church, just don't tell mom, its not lying if she doesn't know... It is lying to me... Lying about where i am to her... It hurts me every time... But, this insanity card is a hard one to swallow.
All i really want is for her to know that i'm going to church, and that i truely believe in God and Christ and that this is who your son is... But at what cost...? Her sanity? ... i dunno what to do ...