Freedom at the cost of Insanity

I talked to grandmom about my plans to tell mom that im going to church from now on and there's nothing she can do about it. If she won't let me go, then i'm moving out... and alot of other things... And for the most part my grandmom agrees with me. She even told me she was going to be baptized real soon, which made me extremely happy. Said it wouldn't make sense that my grandfather goto heaven and that she didn't. Said she'd much rather goto heaven then hell. ha... that gave me a laugh... But grandmom said to tell dad my plans first...

I knew this was gonna be a feet in itself... So i just got out of the conversation with him and things are pretty bad... Dad always seems like he's yellin hen he talks, so its not hard to believe that i was intimidated the entire conversation. I think the biggest point that he made was that mom is like a tall tree thats goes straight up into the air, you can't bend her at all, or she'll snap. But if she was a young true and you bent her then, she would have grown differently... Point being, dad said if i go through with this she'll snap and go crazy becuas thats the type of person she is... Which she is... there is too much to say about mom, none of which ill get into right now...Dad said it doesn't matter if you goto church, i know you goto church, just don't tell mom, its not lying if she doesn't know... It is lying to me... Lying about where i am to her... It hurts me every time... But, this insanity card is a hard one to swallow.

All i really want is for her to know that i'm going to church, and that i truely believe in God and Christ and that this is who your son is... But at what cost...? Her sanity? ... i dunno what to do ...